I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow
2005-05-12 - 5:01 p.m.

Slightly recovered from last entry. Bought some new perfume -- literally, which doesn't quite cover the metaphor, but it'll do me. I think I can push one of these out now... but lo it will be pointless and random and boring and usual disclaimer etc. etc.

Last night I dreamed Harrison Ford asked me out and I distinctly recall thinking "Calista Flockhart is gonna KILL me... wait a minute ... I don't even like Calista Flockhart. Or Harrison Ford, for that matter."

Later two of my nearest and dearest recommended that I should agree to go out with some (fictional) blond I met ... only he turned out to be this psychic 16 year old who kinda had multiple personality disorder, only the odd thing was, he also had multiple bodies. Most of which were evil. Thanks guys.

When I woke up I was relieved. Then I realised that it was early in the morning, with the sky that awful shade of grey, and that I had to go to work.

Bye bye relief. Come back and visit me soon.

Work is somewhere between fine and horrible. Nature of the beast I suppose. I don't want to talk about it.

Something else.

On the way home I heard a song I'd never heard before. The vocals were so raw and the lyrics so simple and honest that it moved me. literally. I was standing but found I -had to sit.

it was like someone was lightly scraping a fingernail down my spine.

James Blunt - Goodbye my lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

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