2002-10-30 - 11:16 a.m.
Heh.
I am still vaguely train wreck like, how are you? So far I have attended 1hr of classes (out of 7) in the past two days.
And the biggest university layabout award goes to... Apparently my soca essay due on friday is meant to be 2000 words (I changed it to 1500 in my head) and is worth 30% (I changed it to 10%). Personally I love how my brain rewrites important information in my head in order to factor out any sense of panic.
But meanwhile I am an essayless girl who has missed the last five tutorials and even more lectures and has no idea what she will find to use up those 2000 words.
Oh yes, and I have two days for that.
Marvellous.
Today I went to the dentist. That's always funfilled, isn't it? All was looking well until he decided to take some xrays of my teeth.
A process that irks me in itself because I have to sit on the chair with the metal apron on me while he gets to duck out of the room to avoid radiation. I always end up thinking "Hey, how come he gets to leave?"
The Xrays were not good. He stared at them for many minutes and said "Something very weird is going on in your mouth." Comparing them to some he took a year ago, he showed me a mark that even he could hardly see that would normally "maybe turn into a cavity in 2, 3, maybe even 5 years" that had managed to become a pretty big hole in the space of a year.
He decided the cause was dietary and I said I had a pretty big sweet tooth and he said "but you wouldn't ever eat like 25 chocolates in one sitting, right?" I said no and blinked my eyelashes innocently.
Meanwhile I have to have 3 fillings next month.
Marvellous.
I have uni at 2. Plus I am walking mum to the hospital, where somewhere in there she has an appointment with a specialist. I offered to go in with her but she only wants me to help her find it. I have maths at 2 so it's not really a big deal if I skip it...
It's just, I worry.
Things are difficult at the moment and yet it's just an ordinary life. I never realised normal people were so messed up.
I am still vaguely train wreck like, how are you? So far I have attended 1hr of classes (out of 7) in the past two days.
And the biggest university layabout award goes to... Apparently my soca essay due on friday is meant to be 2000 words (I changed it to 1500 in my head) and is worth 30% (I changed it to 10%). Personally I love how my brain rewrites important information in my head in order to factor out any sense of panic.
But meanwhile I am an essayless girl who has missed the last five tutorials and even more lectures and has no idea what she will find to use up those 2000 words.
Oh yes, and I have two days for that.
Marvellous.
Today I went to the dentist. That's always funfilled, isn't it? All was looking well until he decided to take some xrays of my teeth.
A process that irks me in itself because I have to sit on the chair with the metal apron on me while he gets to duck out of the room to avoid radiation. I always end up thinking "Hey, how come he gets to leave?"
The Xrays were not good. He stared at them for many minutes and said "Something very weird is going on in your mouth." Comparing them to some he took a year ago, he showed me a mark that even he could hardly see that would normally "maybe turn into a cavity in 2, 3, maybe even 5 years" that had managed to become a pretty big hole in the space of a year.
He decided the cause was dietary and I said I had a pretty big sweet tooth and he said "but you wouldn't ever eat like 25 chocolates in one sitting, right?" I said no and blinked my eyelashes innocently.
Meanwhile I have to have 3 fillings next month.
Marvellous.
I have uni at 2. Plus I am walking mum to the hospital, where somewhere in there she has an appointment with a specialist. I offered to go in with her but she only wants me to help her find it. I have maths at 2 so it's not really a big deal if I skip it...
It's just, I worry.
Things are difficult at the moment and yet it's just an ordinary life. I never realised normal people were so messed up.
