2002-06-09 - 7:20 p.m.
Crashing through hunger barriers like never before!
Well, trying to at any rate. And not really like never before, more like just before.
What's a dieting girl to do ... and before anyone says anything like "wah, wah, anorexic, wah, wah," you can all just zip it. Going through all the females I have known in my entire life in my head and I can think of only one that has a healthy relationship with food. So unless you are her you are doomed to a "like you can talk" refute.
Hrumph. Sorry, the dieting makes me a lil touchy ... are you sensing that?
Work today. Painful because of overwhelming tiredness. And I think former-melty-hair-boy's hair is getting blonder .... no!! I really don't go for blondes. Or if I do, it takes a lot more than looks alone...
Went to former high school's musical last night with people but bailed after (tired..) Musical was very cute. Was cold because of leaving coat in the car half on purpose. Being in the hall again was strange ...
Everything looked the same and so many familiar high school-y type faces ... and yet ... I felt so entriely different. And was half internally gloat-y about it "You can't touch me now, you can't make me feel like I don't belong here because I know I don't,"
Went to school straight from work after a 5 hr shift... can you say ... "Bllllllleeeeuuurrrrghh (*squinchy face*)"? Cos that's what it felt like. And then before work on Friday night was Shelley's birthday casino type trip.
So fun! And more tacky than we could ever have imagined! And was a bit of a gambling addict but didn't lose much money on the slot machines (a dollar or two of my own, like three of shelleys, at least one of alexs and probably one of Cintas as well)...
The last couple of days have been a blur and I'm so tired ... it's been get up, work, go out, sleep, get up, work, go out, sleep, get up, work ...
*squinchy face*
I'm so more than tired right now, which is why expressing myself accurately is not even an option.
Thank god tomorrow is a public holiday. Perhaps than I shall further inform you of my own petty grievances like the holes in my family life, the continued non existance of my love life, the scary assesment load of my uni life, the gratingness of social life.
Well not gratingness so much as bleurghness at the grating of others and extreme frustration that people have priorities so entirely opposed to my own that I don't understand how we even get along.
Urgh, I don't mean that maybe. It's the tiredness and dieting combined to make a bitchy super power, possibly... I give up.
Well, trying to at any rate. And not really like never before, more like just before.
What's a dieting girl to do ... and before anyone says anything like "wah, wah, anorexic, wah, wah," you can all just zip it. Going through all the females I have known in my entire life in my head and I can think of only one that has a healthy relationship with food. So unless you are her you are doomed to a "like you can talk" refute.
Hrumph. Sorry, the dieting makes me a lil touchy ... are you sensing that?
Work today. Painful because of overwhelming tiredness. And I think former-melty-hair-boy's hair is getting blonder .... no!! I really don't go for blondes. Or if I do, it takes a lot more than looks alone...
Went to former high school's musical last night with people but bailed after (tired..) Musical was very cute. Was cold because of leaving coat in the car half on purpose. Being in the hall again was strange ...
Everything looked the same and so many familiar high school-y type faces ... and yet ... I felt so entriely different. And was half internally gloat-y about it "You can't touch me now, you can't make me feel like I don't belong here because I know I don't,"
Went to school straight from work after a 5 hr shift... can you say ... "Bllllllleeeeuuurrrrghh (*squinchy face*)"? Cos that's what it felt like. And then before work on Friday night was Shelley's birthday casino type trip.
So fun! And more tacky than we could ever have imagined! And was a bit of a gambling addict but didn't lose much money on the slot machines (a dollar or two of my own, like three of shelleys, at least one of alexs and probably one of Cintas as well)...
The last couple of days have been a blur and I'm so tired ... it's been get up, work, go out, sleep, get up, work, go out, sleep, get up, work ...
*squinchy face*
I'm so more than tired right now, which is why expressing myself accurately is not even an option.
Thank god tomorrow is a public holiday. Perhaps than I shall further inform you of my own petty grievances like the holes in my family life, the continued non existance of my love life, the scary assesment load of my uni life, the gratingness of social life.
Well not gratingness so much as bleurghness at the grating of others and extreme frustration that people have priorities so entirely opposed to my own that I don't understand how we even get along.
Urgh, I don't mean that maybe. It's the tiredness and dieting combined to make a bitchy super power, possibly... I give up.
